My hubby was scheduled for surgery yesterday. Normal and routine. It was just to unclog his shunt in his arm that he does dialysis from. Let me just say.."been there done that" ..sort of surgery. I know it may sound harsh and uncaring... But that is almost what it is like.
Exactly two weeks ago he had surgery on the other arm. I went in thinking the same thing. Well to my surprise ... He didn't do so well. Four and a half hours later from a surgery that was to be about an hour and a half was my first clue something was wrong. I found out that they had trouble keeping his blood pressure up and almost moved him to ICU. Wow! How quickly things change! It was then that I new that I needed to change my heart and needed God's help to do it! I told God that I didnt want to become immune to my husbands illness or surgeries. I know I shouldn't have been that way to begin with. But it's easy to fall into that rut, especially when you deal with it day in and day out! "Thank you God!" for showing me the rut I was in and for helping me to get out! I don't want to take what You have given us for granted!
Yesterday went well, but going into it, my feelings were totally different! I saw everything a new way. So different that I had to say to myself..." I'm not really used to this...at all!"
I know I have, on probably several occasions, pushed my feelings back so that I don't have to think about anything going wrong. But during all those times I grew callus thinking its no biggie. But as of two weeks ago I have learned that every surgery is a biggie! I need to put my "big girl panties on"...and know that my God is with me! Can I get a Amen??!!!~
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
"The Waiter"
Let me start by saying that Tuesdays are the longest day of the week for me. After working all day, I have a piano lesson, then worship practice. I love my piano lessons, and worship practice....working all day...um...not so much! ;)
I wouldn't trade it for the world though. Let me walk you through my Tuesday.
I can't really say much about work, except well...it's "work." I did however get my work hours changed yesterday. I now work at 7:30am - 4:30pm. Not bad! I didn't mind the change much. I think it will be best for me anyway. I get a 30 minute lunch. Just enough time to catch part of an episode of "Antique's Roadshow" on PBS. Go ahead...I'm sure you are all laughing, but you probably like it too, just won't admit it! ;) If I'm not watching the Web, I'm doing my devotional, or reading my book.
After work, I head straight to church so I can prepare for piano and worship! Piano is awesome! It's my "more relaxed" part of the day. Worship is awesome too, I try to keep it fun, so that we all have a great time, but also help us prepare for services and such.
So It's around 8:30pm before I get home on Tuesdays. Mind you I left the house at 7:15am! Whew long day! I know...I know...I'll quit whining, but I have yet to tell you the greatest part of my evening!
So Josh and I pull in the driveway last night around 8:30. I get in the house...and I'm pooped. Eddie is working so its just me and the kids. Lauren was doing homework, so I went to my bedroom and put on my relax clothes....(aka...pajamas)!
I start going over Joshua's homework and soon realize I'm starving! As Joshua and I were going over his papers, I said babe "Your mom is so tired, how about you fix me dinner tonight?" Took a little coaxing but it worked!
He soon plays waiter and comes into my room with a pen and paper to take my order and a white towel draped over his arm.
I chose a grilled cheese, chips with 1 scoop of french onion dip, and a couple of pickles. He asked if I wanted double cheese and I said..."Sure, why not!" It was so cute. He asked if I wanted my grilled cheese light, medium, or dark..(i guess meaning burnt). I chose medium!
He soon served my order to me just how I like with silverware wrapped in a napkin. (I'm blessed that he likes to cook! Just like his dad!) By now, I'm really digging this - son - pretending to be a waiter thing. I soon realize I need a few more chips. I'm hollering "Waiter, Waiter!" No response....Again.."Waiter, Waiter...!"
He finally hears my cries and I say "Sir, I feel a little neglected in your service. I could really use some more chips." He says "Well I'm sorry about the service, but there are other customers besides YOU!" ...Yes ..he said that!!
But I did get more chips!
I asked about dessert. He said "All we have on the menu is a couple of cookies." He said "My kitchen isn't very well stocked!" Yes, his way of saying "Mom, we need some groceries!" :)
So I'm eating the last of my cookies and enjoying my full belly, and my waiter appears with my bill in hand. I said..."What's this...?" He said your bill.
So here is the bill itemized out.
1 grill cheese - med
Chips with 1 skoup dip
2 sour pikles
Total - $3.00
Ok...first of all I wasn't expecting a bill. Secondly, $3.00 isn't bad. Lastly, and probably the funniest part, when he delivered my tab, he also served me my wallet!!!!!
Unfortunately, I hardly ever have cash, so I told him I would have to owe him. :P
Now, I know I don't owe him anything for the dinner and he knows that too. But I have to tell you..the entertainment was priceless! That was the best ending to a long hard day! Thanks son! I love you!
I wouldn't trade it for the world though. Let me walk you through my Tuesday.
I can't really say much about work, except well...it's "work." I did however get my work hours changed yesterday. I now work at 7:30am - 4:30pm. Not bad! I didn't mind the change much. I think it will be best for me anyway. I get a 30 minute lunch. Just enough time to catch part of an episode of "Antique's Roadshow" on PBS. Go ahead...I'm sure you are all laughing, but you probably like it too, just won't admit it! ;) If I'm not watching the Web, I'm doing my devotional, or reading my book.
After work, I head straight to church so I can prepare for piano and worship! Piano is awesome! It's my "more relaxed" part of the day. Worship is awesome too, I try to keep it fun, so that we all have a great time, but also help us prepare for services and such.
So It's around 8:30pm before I get home on Tuesdays. Mind you I left the house at 7:15am! Whew long day! I know...I know...I'll quit whining, but I have yet to tell you the greatest part of my evening!
So Josh and I pull in the driveway last night around 8:30. I get in the house...and I'm pooped. Eddie is working so its just me and the kids. Lauren was doing homework, so I went to my bedroom and put on my relax clothes....(aka...pajamas)!
I start going over Joshua's homework and soon realize I'm starving! As Joshua and I were going over his papers, I said babe "Your mom is so tired, how about you fix me dinner tonight?" Took a little coaxing but it worked!
He soon plays waiter and comes into my room with a pen and paper to take my order and a white towel draped over his arm.
I chose a grilled cheese, chips with 1 scoop of french onion dip, and a couple of pickles. He asked if I wanted double cheese and I said..."Sure, why not!" It was so cute. He asked if I wanted my grilled cheese light, medium, or dark..(i guess meaning burnt). I chose medium!
He soon served my order to me just how I like with silverware wrapped in a napkin. (I'm blessed that he likes to cook! Just like his dad!) By now, I'm really digging this - son - pretending to be a waiter thing. I soon realize I need a few more chips. I'm hollering "Waiter, Waiter!" No response....Again.."Waiter, Waiter...!"
He finally hears my cries and I say "Sir, I feel a little neglected in your service. I could really use some more chips." He says "Well I'm sorry about the service, but there are other customers besides YOU!" ...Yes ..he said that!!
But I did get more chips!
I asked about dessert. He said "All we have on the menu is a couple of cookies." He said "My kitchen isn't very well stocked!" Yes, his way of saying "Mom, we need some groceries!" :)
So I'm eating the last of my cookies and enjoying my full belly, and my waiter appears with my bill in hand. I said..."What's this...?" He said your bill.
So here is the bill itemized out.
1 grill cheese - med
Chips with 1 skoup dip
2 sour pikles
Total - $3.00
Ok...first of all I wasn't expecting a bill. Secondly, $3.00 isn't bad. Lastly, and probably the funniest part, when he delivered my tab, he also served me my wallet!!!!!
Unfortunately, I hardly ever have cash, so I told him I would have to owe him. :P
Now, I know I don't owe him anything for the dinner and he knows that too. But I have to tell you..the entertainment was priceless! That was the best ending to a long hard day! Thanks son! I love you!
Monday, January 23, 2012
Fence Monster...?
Somehow our neighborhood has a "Fence Monster." Huge giant holes, some 3-4 pickets wide and at least a foot in length! It started with our neighbors, showing us what had happened to their fence, then random houses in the neighborhood started showing signs. Signs that something was creating giant holes with jagged edges and scrapes down and around.
My husband and I had been trying to figure out what was going on. Why all of our neighbors had these huge holes taken out of their fence. In some cases it was right in the middle of the fence. Some 3-4 pickets wide and at least a foot long. That is when my husband and I joked about the "fence monster."
Our little old lady neighbor next door was more concerned that I. She had a small chihuahua named "Snicker" that she had to protect. Not to overly concern her, I told her not to worry, and we would watch out for Snicker.
Sunday afternoon I went to let the dogs out into the backyard and to my surprise a huge hole in our fence, jagged and broken. Just like the others around the neighborhood! I immediately hollered for Eddie (my husband). I ran outside as the winds were picking up and swirling around my head. I'm trying to figure out what I could use to block this huge hole, after all, I have my own dogs to protect! To my surprise, I had some goats and horses in my backyard! Yep...you heard right... goats and horses. Now my backyard isn't big enough for goats and horses. Our town may not be huge, but I live in the city! So I am freaking out a little at this point.
I run out into the alley and I look north, where normally you would see cars driving down the street. No cars. It's starting to rain a little, with blowing dirt mixed in. I look to the south and again no cars. Just horses. That's right lots and lots of horses north and south of me!
Where is Eddie? Grrrr...I am really getting annoyed now! As I turn to go back inside I look next door and guess who I see? Snicker. I run back to the alley towards my neighbors yard to rescue Snicker and almost get plowed by a horse! They are running down my alley towards me. Even little ponies are headed this way! I get back into my yard just in time. Snicker... I have decided will have to wait! I search for my own dogs as the wind whips dirt and rain in my face.
Whew! I keep hollering for Eddie, the kids, somebody? Anybody? Suddenly I hear this beep (pause), beep (pause), beep. The kind of beep you hear when machinery or big trucks are backing up. I head to the alley to see what the beep is. To my surprise, my neighbor in her wheelchair, is being loaded onto a flat-bed truck! I don't recognize any of these people. She's clutching her purse to her chest with one hand, and has Snicker in the other. I'm staring in disbelief! My poor neighbor has this zoned look on her face and she starts screaming at the top of her lungs!
And then I woke up...
Seriously...crazy dream huh!
My husband and I had been trying to figure out what was going on. Why all of our neighbors had these huge holes taken out of their fence. In some cases it was right in the middle of the fence. Some 3-4 pickets wide and at least a foot long. That is when my husband and I joked about the "fence monster."
Our little old lady neighbor next door was more concerned that I. She had a small chihuahua named "Snicker" that she had to protect. Not to overly concern her, I told her not to worry, and we would watch out for Snicker.
Sunday afternoon I went to let the dogs out into the backyard and to my surprise a huge hole in our fence, jagged and broken. Just like the others around the neighborhood! I immediately hollered for Eddie (my husband). I ran outside as the winds were picking up and swirling around my head. I'm trying to figure out what I could use to block this huge hole, after all, I have my own dogs to protect! To my surprise, I had some goats and horses in my backyard! Yep...you heard right... goats and horses. Now my backyard isn't big enough for goats and horses. Our town may not be huge, but I live in the city! So I am freaking out a little at this point.
I run out into the alley and I look north, where normally you would see cars driving down the street. No cars. It's starting to rain a little, with blowing dirt mixed in. I look to the south and again no cars. Just horses. That's right lots and lots of horses north and south of me!
Where is Eddie? Grrrr...I am really getting annoyed now! As I turn to go back inside I look next door and guess who I see? Snicker. I run back to the alley towards my neighbors yard to rescue Snicker and almost get plowed by a horse! They are running down my alley towards me. Even little ponies are headed this way! I get back into my yard just in time. Snicker... I have decided will have to wait! I search for my own dogs as the wind whips dirt and rain in my face.
Whew! I keep hollering for Eddie, the kids, somebody? Anybody? Suddenly I hear this beep (pause), beep (pause), beep. The kind of beep you hear when machinery or big trucks are backing up. I head to the alley to see what the beep is. To my surprise, my neighbor in her wheelchair, is being loaded onto a flat-bed truck! I don't recognize any of these people. She's clutching her purse to her chest with one hand, and has Snicker in the other. I'm staring in disbelief! My poor neighbor has this zoned look on her face and she starts screaming at the top of her lungs!
And then I woke up...
Seriously...crazy dream huh!
Saturday, January 21, 2012
That bad 7 letter word!
That's right...that bad 7 letter word I have been repeating since I got off work Friday!
Normally I watch what I say... But this weekend has been extremely hard for me! Since hate is such a strong word... I'll go with "dislike!".
Ok... "I really dislike you L-A-U-N-D-R-Y!" In a big bad way! More thank you know! Come to think of it, why don't we just throw in the dishes too! Oh and vacuuming, toilets....you catch my drift.
So I'm thinking I will delegate the chores...so it goes faster! Woot! :)
Then I will get comfy with my snuggie and my nook and have a comfy cozy weekend! So that's the plan. I'll let you know if it happens!
Have a super weekend everyone!
Normally I watch what I say... But this weekend has been extremely hard for me! Since hate is such a strong word... I'll go with "dislike!".
Ok... "I really dislike you L-A-U-N-D-R-Y!" In a big bad way! More thank you know! Come to think of it, why don't we just throw in the dishes too! Oh and vacuuming, toilets....you catch my drift.
So I'm thinking I will delegate the chores...so it goes faster! Woot! :)
Then I will get comfy with my snuggie and my nook and have a comfy cozy weekend! So that's the plan. I'll let you know if it happens!
Have a super weekend everyone!
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
"That was EASY"
First let me say that "I Love, Love, Love this Easy button!" I think everybody should have one!
My daughter was cleaning out her room one night and gave me this "easy" button! I instantly laughed and brought it to work. I have to tell you that when you press the button it says in a mans voice - "That was easy!"
So I now have an easy button on my desk at work. (I'm attaching a picture so you can see it.) I have many people here at work just walk in and hit my easy button as if it were there own. Somehow this "easy" button has grown on everybody. What is it about this "easy" button that we love? Don't laugh but here our my reasons for hitting the "easy" button...
*I'm patting myself on the back for a job well done!
*I'm thinking to myself "Good job Robin for thinking of that when no one else did!"
(Plus it sure looked good to my boss, not to mention I'm walking around the office with my head held high...thinking Oh, yea...I'm the bomb!!! haha)
*I have finally finished the dreaded task that I've been working on.
*It is finally 5:00pm and I'm singing 9-5 like Dolly Parton.
*I can finally breathe now that my works done!
*I'm so mad and irritated that I'm not finding an easy way to do something, so I beat the easy button with a passion. (Seriously beating the button...so that the man's voice is now sounding kind of strangled and more like a woman than a man!)
I finally realize that beating my "easy" button and breaking it, may send all my co-workers into a state of shock! Then were would we be? Wait, I know...I would be doing all of their work! Um...NO!
So now, I'm making myself and all of my co-workers go super super easy on the "easy" button! Sounds corny I know, but hey I'm already looking for a replacement online.
So overall whew..."That was Easy!" ;)
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Reading too much?
Ok, I'll admit it! All I want to do lately is read. Read, Read, and Read some more!!
Honestly I've been racking my brain on "Why I need to read today" or "Why I shouldn't read today?" And it is not even one specific book! I have so many that I want to read at once, but for some reason my mind keeps telling me to finish the book I am reading now before starting another one. Are you able to read multiple books? If so please tell me how you do this. I really want/need to know.
Honestly I've been racking my brain on "Why I need to read today" or "Why I shouldn't read today?" And it is not even one specific book! I have so many that I want to read at once, but for some reason my mind keeps telling me to finish the book I am reading now before starting another one. Are you able to read multiple books? If so please tell me how you do this. I really want/need to know.
Monday, January 16, 2012
Starting over...
Well...
As many can soon imagine, I did NOT keep up with my blogging at all. I have since made another resolution to try and incorporate it into my daily routine. I know that many people don't believe in resolutions for the new year, and that is perfectly ok. Too be honest for me, I do continue to make them. "Why you ask?" I feel that it's alright to start something, kind of like a new beginning, when your life changes, or you want your life to change. I myself feel that starting something is better than never starting it at all. Even if I fail after I've started it. I at least know I tried.
I have decided however to just blog about me! That's right, just me! I am not going to be posting any lap-band results any longer. I just want a place where I can be "Me!"
I have struggles too, just as most of us do.
I am the caregiver to my husband "Eddie." Please keep us in your prayers! I am a Christian, and I hope that by listening to my "ups and downs" that you may gain some sort of strength and encouragement by my words. Actually not my words, but Gods words!
Whether it is a good or bad day, I hope you will tag along for the journey!
As many can soon imagine, I did NOT keep up with my blogging at all. I have since made another resolution to try and incorporate it into my daily routine. I know that many people don't believe in resolutions for the new year, and that is perfectly ok. Too be honest for me, I do continue to make them. "Why you ask?" I feel that it's alright to start something, kind of like a new beginning, when your life changes, or you want your life to change. I myself feel that starting something is better than never starting it at all. Even if I fail after I've started it. I at least know I tried.
I have decided however to just blog about me! That's right, just me! I am not going to be posting any lap-band results any longer. I just want a place where I can be "Me!"
I have struggles too, just as most of us do.
I am the caregiver to my husband "Eddie." Please keep us in your prayers! I am a Christian, and I hope that by listening to my "ups and downs" that you may gain some sort of strength and encouragement by my words. Actually not my words, but Gods words!
Whether it is a good or bad day, I hope you will tag along for the journey!
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